God is great!

You know that song "All you need is Love"? I've been singing it all day today. I've been dancing around with one of my babies in my arms singing to them, and subbing in their names for the word love.

"All you need is Sarah do do do do, All you need is Sarah do do do do, All I need is you you, all I need is you"

And that is the God's honest truth, all I need is my baby girls and my life is complete.

I think the way God made love work is absolutely brilliant. For one thing, we will never be able to fully understand or even comprehend what love is, or how big it can be. It changes every day, and in the context of loving my children, it grows every day. Every single day I wake up more in love than I was the day before. I'm glad I don't fully understand it. I'm glad I can't fully wrap my mind around what love is and how it works. The mystery and joy continues to grow because I don't understand. I think if I did fully comprehend the power and glory of love, I would end up thinking I had it figured out and put it away in a little box somewhere in my mind and quite honestly, forget all about it.

I am blown away by how much I love these girls. They are my world, my reason for living, my complete and utter joy. I can't stand to leave them, even with Chris. I'm so happy they are awake more now because when they used to sleep all the time I would just miss them so much. I'd sit and stare at them and wish they would wake up so I could hold one of them. I can't wait for the day they call me Mommy. I can't wait to hear their beautiful little voice tell me they love me. I want to hear them running around giggling and screaming. I want to see their little hand prints on the walls and hang up their drawings. I love the fact that I know every little thing there is to know about them. I love when they hold on to me. I love that they recognize my face and my voice. I love their smell. Sometimes Chris will watch them for me so I can take a nap. When I lay down I sometimes smell their little blankets, I love the smell. I love dressing them up and showing them off. I love just sitting in their room. I love to kiss them, and come up with cute little nick names for them.
I'm just completely and utterly in love, and I hope to God I always feel this way about them. Even when they are teenagers telling me they hate me and can't wait to move out. I hope I can still feel as much adoration for them as I do at this moment.
I want to treat them with respect. I want to parent them full of grace and mercy and love. Above all else I want them to know that God loves them, and I love them, and nothing they do can ever change that. I want them to feel accepted by me, no matter what choices they make and regardless of my approval. I want to love them the way God has loved me; with grace, kindness, forgiveness, and true love.
This is my prayer.


God is great. His love is grand.