Well...

here I am, stuck in bed. On husband imposed bed rest. haha.
I was having some serious contractions yesterday. All day. It didn't matter if I stood, sat, laid down, walked, I was having those contractions. So last night they started getting a bit more intense and closer together. That's when I decided to go lay down and start tracking them. Very irregular, and they didn't get more intense each time. Apparently when you are in real labor they become very regular and more intense as time goes on. After about two hours they had pretty much stopped. I had a few during the night, but none this morning though. I still plan on taking it EASY today. I don't think I'll be able to stay in bed ALL day because Chris has to go somewhere for school and obviously we have the girls. So, I'll have to get up a little bit but I'll be in bed most of the day.

I will tell you what, they are moving SO SO much. From what I've read they kind of stop moving as much the closer you get to delivering because they basically run out of room. These girls though--both of them--they don't seem to have that problem. They kick kick kick. Maybe they are saying they want out. I don't blame them. It's crowded in there:-) FYI my uterus is the size of a watermelon now. A WATERMELON! Gesum crow--pregnancy is crazy.

This part of the pregnancy is the hardest so far. Mainly because actually getting to meet my babies is SO close. The waiting is just killing me and I want them to be born! I can deal with the morning sickness and the stretch marks (UGH don't get me started on those!!!!!), but this anticipation is just killing me. I'm so excited!
I'm not worried about being tired, I'm not worried about being a good mother, I'm not worried about the birth (not a lot anyway), I'm just excited to meet my little ones. I want them to be born, and I want our new lives to start :-) This waiting is very hard.

I was talking with someone the other day, and they were basically commenting on how difficult things can/will be. Like the exhaustion and having two and all that. My thoughts however tend to steer the opposite way. Not to say that I think it will be easy, or that I won't be exhausted. However, when you have been faced with the reality of NEVER EVER having children, and having had to find a way to reconcile that in your mind, your perspective changes. I can honestly say that I have never had a single time during this pregnancy that I worried about how things would be for me once the babes are born. Like about how tired I would be or how hard it would be or blah blah blah. It's not that I don't realize it will be difficult, but I know how it feels to truly believe in your heart that you will never get to experience that. I don't give a crap how hard it will be, I am just THANKFUL I get to experience it. I am thankful for every thing about this pregnancy from the unbelievable morning sickness I had, to the amazing midwife I get to use. I will be thankful for every midnight feeding. I will be thankful for my labor experience--even the pain, because there was a time that I believed I would never get to experience it. I know it's going to be hard, I know it's going to suck sometimes, I know that I might not always remember to be thankful--but I'm not focusing on that. It's a miracle that we have these babes, a true blessing from God. I think unless you've been through what Chris and I have been through--it's difficult to understand the fact that we aren't focused on the hard stuff. We are focused on the unbelievable miracle that God has and is about to give us. How could we possibly be worried or feel negative about anything we are going to experience--good or bad. We almost didn't get to experience it all. I am thankful, just thankful.
So no worries! Be happy for us, pray for us, encourage us, and keep positive. This is the best thing that has and will ever happen to us. Praise God!