Gosh

this pregnancy has gone by so fast. I can't believe that in just over a week I will be 30 weeks pregnant! Next Wednesday!
In some ways, I am very thankful that my road to actually getting pregnant was so difficult. I have savored every moment of this pregnancy. At the beginning I was afraid to admit that it was really happening, I kept thinking something bad would happen. This is mainly because I never believed I would ever have children. So the beginning was rough, but after the first trimester and seeing the ultra sound where they were actual living beings with arms and hands and toes moving all around inside of me, I couldn't deny it. Not to mention once you can start to feel them, and SEE them from the outside, it's amazing. Even though it's really difficult to be pregnant, especially with twins, I love it. I can't wait to be pregnant again! haha. Well I can, but you know what I mean.

Back to my point, it's gone by so fast! I don't have very long at all. My little ticker keeps getting closer and closer to the end.
I am excited though. I can't wait to hold my baby girls in my little arms and see their little faces. I can't wait to see the little bottoms that have been protruding out of my stomach at all times of the day and night in person! lol.
--Funny story--
This morning when I woke up, I tried to sit up but there was this weird feeling in my ribs. I put my hand there and baby B's butt was sticking up into my ribs and out of me just about as far as she possible could get her butt up and out. It felt like she was sleeping the way little kids do with her knees folded in and her butt kind of up in the air with her face down. It was just so far up into my ribs and really sticking out. I had to rub her little butt for like 2 or 3 minutes before she would move. I literally couldn't sit up the right way until she moved. haha. I can pretty much tell now which body parts I am feeling. Especially since I have so many ultra sounds, I always know their positions. They don't really push anything out of me except their butts. haha. They kick and stuff but I can tell the difference between a foot and a little bootie:-)

All of this to say, I love being pregnant and I am sad it's coming to the end. I almost can't imagine not being pregnant.
At the same time, lol, it will be nice to have my body back. I am so big, and heavy. It will be nice to get back to normal.
Speaking of being big. Crowded rooms are really hard for me to navigate these days. I can no longer just slip by people with a polite excuse me. My stomach sticks out so far I really have to think about how I am going to get from one area of the room to the other depending on where the people are and the space that is alloted haha. It's funny actually, but at the same time it makes for an uncomfortable situation sometimes. I feel very in the way at times. So, it will be nice not to have to worry so much about that. lol.

You know what I am going to eat once I have the babies? Tuna fish. I have been craving craving craving tuna for the past few weeks but I can't eat it. No seafood for me! I want a juicy tuna fish and miracle whip sandwich with fritos. Write that down and have it ready for me in the hospital. lol. MMMMMMMmmmmm. That sounds so good.

Also, I have decided that I will not be overwhelmed by having two newborns to take care of. My entire pregnancy SO many people have told me that I am going to be SOO tired and exhausted. They say things like, "I don't know if I could do that" and 'do you have help coming? You are going to need it' and a bunch of other things that in no way help me to feel confident about caring for my girls. Not to mention just knowing that I will be a new mom, just trying to figure things out.
I know it will be hard, and I know I will need help, I know I will be tired. But, I also KNOW I can do it. I know that this was God's plan for me and that He believes I can do it. Otherwise, I wouldn't be having twins. God gave me this blessing because He knows I can do it, and He wants me to do it! So I've decided instead of being scared and worried and nervous, I am going to put my energy into educating myself about caring for babies--twins especially--and just be confident that I can do it. I'm not going to get overwhelmed, I am just going to get through it knowing that God blessed me with my twin girls and He also blessed me with the ability to care for them.
Now, I just wish I could find a polite way to tell people to shut up when they start telling me all the negative opinions they have about having twins :-)

And to end on a happy note: The church is throwing us a baby shower Dec. 21st. hee hee :-)

Alright, I am out. I plan to post some pictures of myself later today :-)
Good day to all!